passion.

I've always loved people who have this passion for life. Passion is passion. It's the excitement between the tedious spaces, and it doesn't matter where it's directed. It can be coins or sports or politics or horses or music or faith... The saddest people I've met in life are the ones who don't care deeply about anything at all. Passion and satisfaction go hand in hand, and without them, any happiness is only temporary, because there's nothing to make it last. I'd love to hear your dad talk about coins, because that is when you see a person at his best, and I've found that someone else's happiness is truly infectious.

it seems like we are all living in some kind of prison and the crime is how much we hate ourselves.



you are given one life. one body. will you waste your life trapped in the prison of your lack of self worth?

live your life. you were fearfully and wonderfully made.

If His grace is an ocean, I'm drowning.

You know when you are walking through a dark room, grabbing on to anything to keep yourself from falling? I have almost always tripped and fallen by the time I have reached the light switch, then you turn on the light and it's this overwhelming sense of awareness, it hurts your eyes, it takes you a minute to gain composure. Last night was like that, but emotionally. I have been walking around with my eyes and ears closed, too stubborn to open them. I have been grabbing on to everything possible to keep from falling, crying out for help and wondering why I hear nothing. Having fallen a few times, it surprised me, that sudden sense of awareness. He spoke to me through a friend, through a casual conversation. It was overwhelming, painful, thinking about how much I have ignored God as He called out to me. Now that some of the pain is gone, I feel so strong knowing that He will lead me through the dark, He will be a lamp to my feet. I have known that for as long as I can remember, but I think I was so blinded by my own selfish desires that without realizing it, I turned my back, I closed my eyes and covered my ears. I would have denied it, but deep down I was shutting Him out, refusing His help. Then I tripped and fell.

The thing that amazes my the most about all of this is that even though it breaks His heart for me to refuse Him, it brings Him joy to see me running back to Him. I continue to shut out His voice, but no matter what, He will never stop calling.

Like seeing a bright light after darkness, God's love has once again hut me hard and all I can do is praise and wonder what I did to deserve this kind of love, even though I already know the answer...

nothing.

if His grace is an ocean, I'm drowning.

the world is spinning 'round
there's no sign of slowing down
so darling, don't forget to take a breath.

Empty fields move me so much more then rooms filled up with friends. The way the trees look dead remind me that there’s more to life then living, and maybe giving up’s not bad, but part of letting go of you…

a letter to me-21012

if 2012 is anything like the year before, there will be a lot of change. I hope you keep calm, be still and let the Lord fight for you. You will probably make friends and lose friends, these relationships and these feelings are so temporary. I hope you never lose sight of Him, or forget that you are never truly alone. I hope you rejoice in being broken and always look to Him to fix you. I hope you continue learning the art of being selfless. I hope you never lose sight of what you are passionate about and continue to use that passion to glorify God. I hope you laugh and cry, leave your comfort zone behind and find things that make you feel. I hope you are vulnerable, but strong. I hope you are trusting, but still wise. I hope you can be confident and not self concious. I hope you love without fear, taken risks and find out who to trust. Always be kinder than necessary for eveyone is fighting a battle of their own - I hope you never forget that.

Be strong and courageous, you are more than a conquerer and you are dead to sin. I hope you find yourself.

-sweetly broken, wholly surrendered. 8/21/2011

Day three hundred and nine~surrender.

Stop worrying about tomorrow. stop worrying about today. stop worrying about what they will think.

surrender. surrender yourself, your emotions. surrender your pride and your fears.

all to Him. He will bring you comfort, He will bring you hope and joy. just surrender it all. give your life to Him.

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

Matthew 6:33-34

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11

i will be.

-caring
-understanding
-passionate
-honest
-calm
-loyal
-dedicated
-trusting
-patient
-loving
-mature
-strong
-forgiving
-selfless
-giving
-compassionate
-merciful
-supportive.

he will be.

-christian
-honest
-loyal
-trustworthy
-mature
-intelligant
-thougtful
-caring
-respectful
-somewhat outgoing
-sincere
-understanding
-witty
-patient
-fun
-sarcastic
-strong [emotionally]
-a best friend
-passionate
-driven
-funny
-spontaneous
-forgiving
-interested in my photography
-genuine
-laid back
-hard working
-good leader
-calm
-creative
-high standards
-selfless
-independant
-good taste in music
-compassionate
-supportive
-giving